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Friday, December 12

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last paper n i screwed it up. couldnt even study for it the whole nite even tho i was awake and staring at the tons of paper in front of me.

last nite was a disaster.
dun wana talk abt it.
dun wana bawl it out.
but i juz cant help myself.
i duno what to believe or who to believe.
nobody's makin any sense.
i'm gg crazy.
should shift to hougang real soon.
both besties are leavin for vacation.
peah gg phuket. nad gg KL.
can't relate to them. not YET maybe.
dun wana spoil their vacations.

i'm totally in the mood for angst n jiwang.
i wana smoke.
i wana drink.
i wana dance.
i wana flirt.
i wana live my life.

to a certain someone.
i will not say anything abt it.
be it true or not.
i'm juz gona shut myself up n be like this till i am OK.
i noe u wont xplain.
cos u're not in the wrong.
then i also wont budge.
cos i duno anything anymore.
mistakes are inevitable, i noe.
but u juz shattered every part of me. not a single piece was spared.
my body trembles every time i think of last nite.
the tears will juz flow without me realizing.
i wana b strong but i'm juz weak.
i trusted u. i always have. even on this one.
but last nite was ur downfall.

i hate this part. i truly do.

Last Updated @ 2:53 PM

xoxo, Y