The Next Turn

2009-07-10T02:07:00.000+08:00

OMG! it's been a month? or two?
haha! soon ya.. =)

2009-06-06T22:20:00.002+08:00

i've been too bz to update my blog nowadays.
dun worry my dear frens.
all's gooood.
too good in fact that i duno where to start.
so i'll juz take my time in the updates later on. when i really have the time.
=)

muah!

2009-05-08T10:41:00.002+08:00

yesterday was whirlwind rollercoaster i muz say. haiz.
it was a moment of revelations n explanations.
i'm still recuperating from the impact tho.
but i realised sth.
whenever sth happens, my gut feeling will tell me whether to worry.
cos if there's nothing to it, my heart wldnt be thumping n butterflies wont fleet in my belly.

adios to yesyerday now.

ANW, i muz say i'm glad to be reunited wif Nadira this sem..haha
same class for FFA man! YEAH!
let's bring the house down beybeh! haha..

and dear bestie, i juz hope that things work out well for u too.
u're tryin to conceal ur emotions but i see right through u.
n i love u like a sister. i kp tellin blondiesayang that if either of us were a guy, we'd be happily married. HAHA!

SILAH! al azhar was a GREAT place for us huh?
LOL.
u noe i noe beb. =)
thanks for e impromptu meet-up.
more please!!!
tkpe, tuesday aku jpe kau ayte! after the haircut..
any of u gals wana join? contact silah atau aku k? =)))

huda n ain. my 2 long-time-no-see gals...HAHA!
they're always so bz...n our schedules NEVER coincide. haiz..
u're greatly missed dears..

n blondiesayang, i hope that u wld have been at least more transparent wif me abt certain stuff. u shud noe me by now. i aint strong n i believe anything anyone says. yesterday crushed me. i hope we cld work towards a better future.

2009-04-29T00:20:00.002+08:00

kasthuri's bday bash was a B.L.A.S.T!!!

was called up to the stage for a game. urgh! ultimate paiseh-nessity..LOL!
n blondiesayang won in the best dressed competition according to the theme of the party. haha! kekek berok! well, he really does noe how to dress up unlike me. =(

anw, the food was SUPERB. especially the mutton! orgasmic gastronomical experience! haha! well, figuratively of course..

anw, watched TAKEN n FAST N FURIOUS yesterday n earlier today wif blondiesayang.
both shows were awesome! must Must MUST watch!!! trust me..

been trying to contact certain ppl..somehow, i juz cldnt get thru to them. haiz..

NADIRA!!! MANE KAU MENGHILANG? PERGI TANPA KATA. AKU BETOL2 TK TAU CMNE NK CONTACT KAU AGY... =(

haiyoh.

anw, gotta continue to my skewl stuf.
ding ding dong! =)

2009-04-21T12:43:00.003+08:00

had the luxury of blondiesayang's time and attention the past few days n i am LOVING it! haha...tell me who doesnt!..
he fetched me from work from thursday to saturday n showers me with his love.
PLEASE DONT STOP! =)
heh...

been going out a lot lately..

on 19th april 2009, went sentosa for some outrageous tanning. haha!
members of the crew were me, blondiesayang, peah, hafiz, silah n helmi.
numerous photos were captured yet none are in my hands..haiz..
peah...bile dpt gambar???....hehe...
it was very last minute n of course mr hafiz was the earliest. guess who the latecomer was this time? blondiesayang. AGAIN. haha. grrr...

anw, had a good time there tho there was nothing elaborate for our picnic.
no homemade food or games. juz enjoying each others' company and laughing our asses off. haha!
*laugh last n telescast* LOL!

peah looked like she really enjoyed herself swimming wif the ball. THAT ball that we "found" the last time we went to pahlawan. LOL. thanks hafiz..haha!
it was sad tho that someone had to leave for work in the midst of our rendaming moments. cian die...lol!

on the way back to cck, me n blondiesayang were totally knocked out that silah had to wake him up. haha! cian die..
his face looked so tired n he was so darn quiet. i cn tell u peah was enjoying THAT moment. kn peah kn? hee..

anw, we went out again yesterday. =)
i was supposed to meet peah for her hair appointment at toni and guy heeren. so after skewl, went to fetch her n we hit town at abt 4. after that accompanied peah for some make-up ideas for her boyfie. after that, went to meet blondiesayang at lucky plaza. he came from work, btw. n i gave him 3 roses for our 2yrs n 3mths anni. haha! i dun usually celebrate in months but yesterday was juz pure coincidental and unintentional. after which, we met *euphoria-ed* silah n *elated* helmi n had dinner at far east plaza. my very first meal for the day. haha!

n as blondiesayang was askin bout hafiz, hafiz called me. Coincidence huh? haha..
however, hafiz cldnt join us cos he only got nite's off n we were too far away from him. oh well, some other time maybe?

n i cant wait to see peah's hair today! she called juz now to let me noe that her hair is FREAKIN short. i wonder how it looks like rite now with the stripes n all.. haha! gawdd honey, no matter what happens, i'm sure u're hot as hell! hahah!
cant wait!

2009-04-19T02:17:00.002+08:00

20th april wld have marked 2yrs n 3mths that we have been together.
n only today did hamid meet my folks as well as some uncles n aunts.
it was awkward. but turned out ok.
blondiesayang was wearing a cap. but mom asked him to take it off cos dad doesnt like people wearing caps in the hse.
so...........haha! poor him had to take his cap off.
nothing was said to him bout his hair. it's juz that he felt awkward. haha!
dad was saying that there may be many more occassions to come. so yeah..
we'll juz wait n c..
love ya!

2009-04-09T00:17:00.003+08:00

i was approached by a CD guy in uniform in bus 169 today.
n he was askin for my number. in front of everyone else in that crowded bus!
omg..i was so freakin embarrassed.
well, i think i gave a stupid reply cos he gave me a shocked look. haha.
i said that i was married. LOL!
i was so awkward that i felt like disappearing into thin air if that's possible.
or should i alter my molecular density like seth does in race to witch mountain?
haha!
oh well, other than that, today is normal as it is.

well, it looks like this inatrysha gal on tagged is still not givin up on blondiesayang. she now no longer comments on his profile. she now comments on botak's (blondiesayang's best fren) profile n pics. haha..BUSTED!

n i have no idea why certain gals are freakin proud to announce that they r the ex of a guy. like do u minahs have to make public announcements on that?
what the hell is ur modus operandi? lol.
i juz dun get it.
i'm starting to hate minahs.
they're sucha shame to the society. OUR society.
maybe they need some kind of "holy" water splashed on them to risen their conscience.

haiz. double haiz.

2009-04-08T15:08:00.001+08:00

haiz...off today.
so rot at home.
n the above is the result. =)
actually it's for him to place in his tagged profile.
nvm, sneak preview at my blog 1st k? haha..

2009-04-07T02:47:00.000+08:00

created a lil something for US.

cute aint it? =)
my efforts werent futile after all.

2009-04-03T13:19:00.007+08:00

i have been hittin the beach the past 2 days..
n it's all gooooooooooood. haha.

wed was an outing wif ta22 at sentosa. went to tanjong beach and played a lot of games. it was crazy n fun! =)
a lot of photos were taken. but all were on zach's camera. =(

yesterday was spent wif the cathay colleagues n blondiesayang. we went rollerblading at ecp. haha! 21 yrs n only now am i learning how to blade. haha!
i was practically falling down every few metres. lol.
thanks zul, hana, wan, azrin, farouk n nadrah for being such good sport. hehe.
n thank u blondiesayang for being VERY (i repeat) VERY patient wif me. appreciate ur patience n motivation. =)
n i noe, my downfalls were super unsightly, haha.
blondiesayang even caught me on vid. urgh! uber embarrassing.

the convoy. farouk, azrin, syazwan, zul, blondiesayang, me, nadrah, hana.

the cutie pies. nadrah and hana. feat syazwan on the left n farouk on the right.

syazwan and azrin.

zul was sayin that blondiesayang would be his after 3 weeks. HAH!

finally our couple pic!

the long walk.

ILY, my blading instructor. =)

time to go to work!

2009-03-26T00:47:00.002+08:00

i'm having a writer's block.
sheesh..nvm, i give up.

juz some quotes specially dedicated to Inatrysha. haha.

Funny Myspace Comments

Funny Myspace Comments

Funny Myspace Comments

ouh...did i tell u she has a kid? haiz..
n she puts up messages to her haterz. haha. ppl wont hate u if there's nothing to hate abt rite? very YP. n i tot mothers are much wiser than that.
ugh. pathetic.

ok enuf jannah. ur blog is becoming dramatique.
time to hit the bed bebeh! =)

message from Inatrysha (tagged)

2009-03-24T00:06:00.003+08:00

watever it is,i really appreciate ur bf alots although he's attch to u...n also i dun wanna find fault with u... im a girl,and also u rite..... n i hope u will try to understand a girl's feeling ok...... im sorry if i ever hurt u but giving him tags.... but now,even im attch to sumone else,i just cant forget him....... just remember dat ok.....im sorie.... say watever u wanna say..... im IN!!

OMG. haha. i duno how to interpret her tone.
ok, i duno how to actually handle this. but well, i did rply to her.
i'm not sure how long she had been falling for blondiesayang but shudnt be very long cos he only started tagged like recently. n she's saying she can't forget him.

well, yeah i'm hurting. but i think i shud trust blondiesayang on this one. he deserves it. we've been through a few hindrances along our relationship. this shudnt be the last one rite? basically, i'm quite tired to react.

ANW,
i had a lil accident at work today. slipped and fell head first. hit my head twice as the impact of the fall was too huge that my head made a bounce. haha! n YES, it is ACUTELY, IMMERSELY, EXCRUCIATINGLY painful. i hope that gives a rough idea of how it felt like. haha.

oh btw, i snipped off my not so tressy tresses. blondiesayang urged me to cut wif him. since he's sponsoring, aku ok go ajer! haha! spot me soon k! =)

other than that, i'm fine.
k dah. nites!

2009-03-22T01:21:00.002+08:00

the above was dedicated to me by blondiesayang. he's a total failure at romance. but somehow, his sincerity never fails to save him. LOL.

anw, I ended work at 8 just now and went to meet blondiesayang for abt an hour plus for dinner before heading home. talked abt stuf wif him. important stuf. he's trying to mould a woman out of THIS child. but i doubt i'm making any progress. haha! i'm such a disappointment. sheesh.

nothing much happened today. juz went to work as usual. late AGAIN.
oh, n i'm on top of the latecomers' list. required to write 4 incident reports. but what the heck! bullshit la! i'm paid by the hr. it's not as if i was "makan-ing gaji buta". F.O. =)

lookin forard to tmr! weeee!...

2009-03-21T01:20:00.002+08:00

was workin 2 to 10 today.
at the end of my shift, din was ping-pong-ing whether to extend me till 1 or not.
haha. in the end, he asked me to go home. lol.

huda came to watch a movie juz now. she was so pretty. (as always).
was workin wif bitch juz now n sth funny happened.
i was actually askin kak zu what she wanted in a very nice tone.
bitch was in front of me n tot that i was askin her. lOL.
so she replied. HAHA! i wanted to laugh straight at her, in her face. but as there was a crowd, i didnt quite bother to say anything to her. juz look at her wif an uplifted brow then asked kak zu again what she wanted. lol.
haiz.

then, went to meet bestie after work. lucky thing i did.
missed her so much!

just logged onto tagged. out of sheer curiosity, i took a peek at inatrysha's profile. she's the gal who have been hogging blondiesayang's profile wif tags n comments. n i juz realised something. she has this cube thingy that's animated wif her pics. so a different pic is shown on every side of the cube as it rotates. THEN, i noticed blondiesayang's pic in it. GRRR!

n so i sent her a short and clean msg. stil waiting for her rply.
y the heck wud she put my bf's pic there? she juz got herself a bf what, put his pic then. sheesh...stop it sey minah. irritating to the max peh prangai.

oh ya! exam results were released at 9am just now. guess what? i failed 1 module. HAHA. that too, my accounting module. LOL. haiyo! kena repeat la sey.
nvm, i think it's better repeating. =)

PEACE!

2009-03-19T00:13:00.002+08:00

i got my N81 back!!!! =)
i'm all smiles beybeh!

n TA27 is gona have a beach outing on 30mar..i AM GOING! =)
nad..jomz..
i'll kp that day free for u guys k..
miss u guys a lot man! =)

no news from bestie yet..guess she's still away..=(
miss her la............

anw, i've been eating a lot recently.
meal after meal. food after food.
i'm so bloated rite now.
had carrot cake just now. then had to help finish blondiesayang's mom's fried rice. shared a bowl of yong tau foo wif blondiesayang. wah! a LOT man.

i guessi shud be double my size by the time skewl reopens.
it's gd there's no need for identification upon opening of skewl. haha. drastic i tell u. lol.

workin tmr. wana rest now. nites! =)

2009-03-17T00:41:00.003+08:00

bestie went to m'sia today. =(
tot of meetin her up tmr..
guess i'll have to wait till she's back after 4 days.
i still wonder what's up with her..havent gotten the chance to actualli meet n talk to her. lotsa news actualli..haha..
every time we meet, there's always stuff to update each other abt.. lol.

another bestie is long unheard of.
NAD...MANE KAU?
haha..seriously..miss you so much!
i've no idea when i'll get to meet her.
although it's school break, we havent even met up with each other. AT ALL!
cn u believe it? haha..
haiz..

n the trip to KL yesterday was exhausting.
i'm so drained rite now but i cant slp..
too excited abt meetin blondiesayang tmr i guess.. haha..
like FINALLY! =)

at work today, i did catering. it was for animax asia. i think it shud be some launch of a new program or sth. glad it was only 120 pax. good news: I DIDNT BREAK ANYTHING TODAY! haha..blondiesayang shud be proud of me for curbing my clumsiness. lol.

k. nuff said. ciaoz!

2009-03-14T21:58:00.002+08:00

i duno wat's wif me nowadays.
been restless at work lately.
n i've found 2 nemesis at work. one's a guy, the other a gal.
both their mouths are as big as the ocean. wahaha!
kahwin kan pon sajak.

i'm gg KL tmr wif the whole BIG FAMILY. haha..
some aunt's wedding, that's y.
but heck, will be back at nite cos daddy gotta work on mon n sis gotta skewl too.
so much for a "holiday". haha.

yesterday, went to catch Slumdog Millionaire at The Cathay wif blondiesayang and hafiz. it was a GOOD show. really a must watch! i bet ash n peah are nodding their heads aggressively to this one. haha!
a simple but very real plot. makes me so thankful for the life i'm having here no matter how hard. what those ppl in India had to go through is so much worse.
i guess it is a blessing that we are just a small country whereby governance is transparent and orderly. i guess the feeling of security and safety is the most important in calling a country home. my heart reaches out to those who are inevitably trapped in vicious cycles in their society.

ANW, i'm so gona miss blondiesayang when i'm away. LOVE YOU. =)

2009-03-11T00:48:00.002+08:00

weeee!
i'm fallin more n more in love wif blondiesayang.
spent today with him, sufi n his date.
watched bloody valentine n watchmen at TC n had some insightful communication with blondiesayang. u really r my pillar of strength. n for that, i love u.

i really had put in effort to dress up today as it had been very long since we last went on a proper date. alas, we didnt have any cameras to capture our moments. we were both in white though. heh. his fav.

i think bestie is havin some problems. gona call her tmr. gotta remind myself.

peace! =)

2009-03-10T03:25:00.001+08:00

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2009-03-09T00:45:00.003+08:00

HAPPY BDAY HUDA!!!

1 mar 09
yes i noe this came in REAL late.
the others have alrdy blogged abt it n apparently i am the last 1 to do so.
well, it's alrdy a full 7 days after the event anw.
haha!

here i am bloggin abt 1 mar 2009.
it was CRAZY FUN! haha..

my forsaken sleep wasnt futile after all. =)

i've never had picnic in the rain b4 so this experience was a fresh one.
n of course, lotsa memories to be treasured.
in the midst of all the enjoyment, 1 of the girls were feeling a bit down as she had just gone through a BAD breakup. i hope that the outing was able to cheer her up a bit. smile k dear? =)

there're so many pics n i possess none of them.
so i suggest u guys head to peah's or azie's blog for the visuals.

that's for last sun. haha.

n now, for today.
went cycling at ecp wif hafiz ash n peah.
woohoo!
as some of u might noe, i'm definitely not 1 who rides. HAHA!
i get nervous when there're lotsa ppl ard me.
well, thanks to my 3 cheerleaders as well as my road marshalls, i made through today SMOOTHLY wif no bruises or injuries. haha.
KUDOS guys! =)

it's all FUN FUN FUN!

ubin eh peah? haha..hmmz...BILE?

2009-03-07T03:10:00.002+08:00

it was the bitch showdown today. haha!
happened at ME. serves her right. it was the final straw for me as i really couldnt hold it in anymore.
let her see my immature n unprofessional side. take THAT.

anw, had fun at sentosa on 1mar. pics comin soon! =)
weeeee!!......

2009-02-28T00:00:00.004+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CIK YAKOB!!!

we miss u. =)

n AIN!!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO U TOO!!
i've no idea where to place ur wish. haha! cos there's no 29th this yr.
oh well,i'll just place it here ok? =)
anw, this yr marks ur 5.25 yrs old. wow!!! haha..cool huh? =p

we definitely miss u!!! sad u cldnt join us on sun..=(
nevertheless,u're not forgotten. have a blazt at genting!
muah!muah! muah!

2009-02-27T13:00:00.000+08:00

LAST PAPER. YEAH. =)
lotsa plans ahead! woohoo!! =)

2009-02-27T00:15:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ABAH!!!

we love u very much! =)
muah!

2009-02-26T16:16:00.002+08:00

zul! i'm smelling hints of freedom!!!....
haha..yeah!

tmr's my last paper..then after that, exams be gone!

blondiesayang didnt go work today. lepaking at his fren's place.
n here i am. typing this blog out while trying to study n msn-ing wif blondiesayang and listening to my blog song. over n over again.

haha. i'm still surprised as to how come i'm wif him. lol.
he was totally not my type. yet in the end it was him. there must be a reason. n i believe the reason's good. thank you Allah, i am very grateful to have him in my life.
semoga panjang jodoh kita.amin. =)

anw, all seems fine n on par. n inatrysha is still not off his back i guess. haiz..
lantak die la. peah said that she's not worth the heart ache. cos in the end, i shud trust hamid n i noe how he is. however, she did say that 100% trust is impossible. so true bestie. very well said. n here's what i think.

trust is important for a relationship's survival. but 100% trust is just inviting trouble. it's always good to have a little room for suspicions ya noe. i'm not saying that i'm hoping for unwanted things to happen. but there has to be space for everything. it's more like something to back us up with.so that if anything ever happens *touchwood*, at least i wont feel silly for havin been fooled TOTALLY. that almost always happenED to me. haha. notice my past tense?..yeah..

anw, watched benjamin button on tuesday nite wif blondiesayang at CWP. the show actually made me feel grateful for having the very people in life that matters to me. it made me feel grateful to be growing older everyday with everyone else. even if it means extra wrinkles and a bigger bum in 20 yrs' time. LOL. but seriously, i am grateful for the life i've been leading for the past 20 yrs. i can't say i have no regrets. sorry i'm not like u sayang..haha.. i do have regrets but i try to make up for that by being better.

i love me!!!
as well as everyone else who are in my good books. =)

ok. gotta study.

2009-02-22T21:15:00.004+08:00

i juz cant wait for the exams to be over n done wif!
i wana partayyyyyyy!

n of course accomplish all the plans that me n peah had in mind.
well, maybe not all..haha! cos there's like an infinite list that just goes on and on..

anw, hamid sent me a video clip when we were on msn the other day. we were having a discussion n he sent me the link which shocked me. i tot it was gona b over between us. but he said that he wanted me to listen to it. the song he means, not the lyrics. well, HAHA. i didnt take it too well i guess. i still have a feeling that he actually wants to leave. for some reasons, he's holdin back. haiz. insecurities are so not needed rite now.

and kak zu just told me sth very interesting. haha. bitch talked to her abt me. asking y i was so cold to her. sheesh! kak zu said that bitch will wana approach me abt it. i'll juz be waiting. anw, like i said. she doesnt matter anymore.
so what if i'm cold to u? bear wif it. u started it anw. next time u gotta think wif ur head n not ur pride. life's not all abt glory. btw, the main thing is, i dun think it's even a glory to me. it's more like putting a bad name to urself. dun say that i'm immature or unprofessional. it's gd enuf that i still have my lips sealed abt it. i'm not like u who tells the whole world. wherever is ur self-respect? i rest my case. n i'm comfortable with the way i am. to U. say me evil n all. u still dun matter.

well, gotta get back to studying for tmr's econs paper..sheesh!
toodles! =)

2009-02-19T02:35:00.002+08:00

been addicted to awie's songs ever since i got jiwangz...LOL.
here's a nice one wif ella. this was when i was waaay younger. haha.

Baldu Biru - Ella & Awie

oh, n i met a LOT of ppl earlier today! =D
it's really like a reunion.haha.
except that they all come from the different stages in my life. LOL.
it was nice that tho they dun noe each other, they made the effort to talk n be friendly.
i've wonderful friends u noe! =)
love all of u!

here's the list of ppl i met n bumped into today.
peah n ash
nabila (cathay CWP)
abang ipul (cathay CWP)
syarifah nurhuda zuhairah (what a long naaaame!) wif her sis n old fren
kamilliya iqbal n fathin (cathay TC)
zakiah n shida (my sis' frens)

kewl shyte or what!!!....haha!
peace! (peah: no war!) hehe.

2009-02-17T23:53:00.002+08:00

i'm at peace. heh.
thanks everyone.
thanks for having my back through it all.

nad, thanks for that cheery2 song. yes, of course. my mom is everything to me.

ain't that sweet? hehe..

ok! JANNAH! back to ur studies...=D
gd luck everyone!

2009-02-17T00:47:00.002+08:00

everyone have their own inadequacies.
we're human. that's what makes us.
n mine, i'm just weak and pathetic.
i'm broken and abandoned. with no strength to put myself together.

however, i do have to thank certain people for putting up with me for the past few days.
firstly, of course bestie. thanks for trying to push me. i noe i may be adamant. i'm sorry. i just can't help myself.
secondly, nad. thanks to u for being a strong pillar. always there to console me.
thirdly, zul. haha. unsuspecting but a very good tissue. thanks for everything.
the list of course doesnt end. i'm touched by all of ur concern.

however, i'm still a wreck.
what i fear might happen. n it can happen in just a split second.
just like that and 2yrs can be shifted into the archives of my life.
i duno if he's been reading my blog. but it doesnt seem like it.

so the jiwangs rite now.

hanya kau yang mampu - aizat

i'm wishing that this is all just a bad dream. where i'll wake up n we're like before. can that happen tomorrow, please..? haha. wishful thinking is all this is.

2009-02-16T00:57:00.004+08:00

went to jemputan today. my parents were glad that it was a full family event.
whereby all of my siblings were present too.
it's so difficult to have a family outing together.
the elder siblings are always busy with our own schedules..school, work n frenz..
well, enjoyed today.
tried to take my mind off of him. but in vain.
it doesnt help that the invitations were at yew tee n cck.
was sooo hoping that i'll bump into him or something.
sheesh..i felt so drained.

anw, met a secondary school fren at cck mrt just now.
was talkin to him and as soon as i realised it, my family was way ahead.
haha..n so i asked him to take my number sine he was askin abt job offers.
sheesh..i had no idea that he's gona show interest in his msges.
kinda regretted the action of givin him my contact.
well, i tot he was gona be just talkin abt job offers and that's it.
adduiiii...

and i'm addicted to this song by kangen band. i even sent it to him on msn tho he's offline. hope he'll take a listen.

Doi - Kangen Band
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Katakanlah hei kekasih

Coba kau pikirkan, coba kau renungkan
Apa yang kau inginkan telah aku lakukan
Coba kau pikirkan coba kau renungkan
Tanya bintang-bintang hanya kaulah yang ku sayang
Coba kau katakan apa yang kau inginkan
Apa yang kau butuhkan telah aku berikan
Coba kau katakan apa yang kau inginkan
***

this part is totally for YOU.

i miss u. n i hope that what i'm doing is the right thing. maybe it's time that the tables are turned. it's ur turn to chase. if u loved me, n cared for me, u'll definitely find what u did stupid and apologise. i'm still waiting.

2009-02-15T04:28:00.004+08:00

today was sucky.
went to work by train.
lotsa couples. made me miss him so much.
he actually ignored me the whole freakin day.
i duno how much longer i can withstand this.
love love love love.
all the love songs and sights around me are making me puke.
i'm unwell now, kudos to u!

werk was FUNNN!
haha..the crowd was "OMG!" kinda crowd.
they just keep coming.
different faces, different gifts. hah!
all the valentine's bull.
i'm so not enjoying the fun they're having and the love they're getting.

had many sets of conversation with zul at work today.
insightful and meaningful, i must say.
there was this part when he asked whether i'd support the nazis or the jews.
it's totally out of the blue.
haha! he still hasnt finished explaining y he asked. cos the crowd was merciless.
sheesh..

OH! btw, i spilled popcorn and dropped a hotdog in the theatre.
haha! it was the customer's fault anyway.
i was as elegant as i could be. =P
n bitch was working too.
i think i'm getting over her.
cos i really dun care if she's there or if she's not anymore.
cos she juz dun matter. worthless piece of trash. definitely not worth my attention.

on the way home in the cab, i suddenly felt giddy.
never in my whole life have i ever gotten motion sickness before.
haha..the cab uncle had to wait for me while i try to regurgitate. sorry uncle, u're very nice. =)

still not feeling too good.
there's a wedding invitation to attend to tomorrow.
n i've yet to START studyin.
sheesh..JANNAH...adudui...
haha! that's nad's fav btw...the "adudui" part..kn nad?
LOL.

k la..
gotta sleep now.
wakin early tmr to do some chores before going out.
and then STUDY! =)
HAH. it seems like it's takin me forever to drag my attention to studies nowadays.
my mind's a jungle at the moment.
n i'm still waiting. for YOU.
HAIZ...

if a minah is what u want, then a minah i will be.
but dun ever regret the loss of a person whom u used to noe.

2009-02-14T05:04:00.006+08:00

i miss us. n how we used to be.
i still keep ur msges. n it makes me think.
r u really as sincere as u seem?
all i noe is that u seem too good to be true.
n i heard from someone somewhere, if a guy seems to be too good to be true then he probably is.
haiz..

i noe the issue seems pretty petty. but the implication of it is kinda huge.
n i really didnt expect this from u at all.
i want things to be the way it was. u want it too.
but u're destroying every single thing i've kept going for us.
u keep ripping my heart again and againmercilessly.
i'm not just a rag doll, insensitive and helpless.
i've brains and i THINK.
reminiscence is sweet for me.
but it hurts when i compare it to the present.

hold me close, dun ever let me go.
but how could u, when ur arms are far away. n getting further.
u make me hate u too.

2009-02-09T03:49:00.004+08:00

went to SENTOSA!!!
uber fun!!!
sad too cos it was my last chance to ever c aman in the near future.
no more free food. =(
haha..no la. really. the main thing is that i'll just miss him.
and all the talk abt politics n intellectual stuf. he's very knowledgeable for a chef. one of my closest buds in cathay.
miss you.

after a game of water polo. me wif rakinah, bangla boi aswad and yadiy! =)

me rakinah and liyana. cute kn dorg?

candid.

zul n wan. legends.

cathay! aman in orange rite in front. =)

2009-02-02T19:44:00.003+08:00

relationships and its ups and downs..haaiz..
enuf abt it..let's move on..

hate-tags.
i hate ppl who does that on ppl's tagboards.
i've no idea what they are looking to achieve in creating a stir in ppl's lives.
it is their blog anyway so let them have their say.
y'd u nd to xpress ur uninvited opinions?
haiz..these ppl are so shallow..

today juz sucked. big time.
oh wkends! do come soon! =)

anyway, i'd like to wish my late auntie a happy bday in eternity.
i miss u very much.
here's an al-fatihah for u from me.

bismillahirrahmanirrahim.
alhamdulillahirabbilalamin.
arrahmanirrahim.
malikiyaumiddin.
iyyakana'budu waiyyakanashta'in.
ihdinashiratolmustaqim.
shiratollazinaan'amta'alaihim.
ghairilmaghdubialaihimwaladdhaallin.
amin.

semoga dikau abadi dgn aman di sisinya. =)

2009-02-01T10:05:00.008+08:00

i've been addicted to tagged lately.
well, none of the flirting stuf but it's like a game and response is almost synchronous! thanks to my bf for intro-ing it to me. i used to make a big fuss abt him having a tagged account. now that i have one, i udstd what's happening n i noe that i can trust him. so...no more fussy me on this. but i do get a bit jealous sometimes when i look at his frenz list. sheesh...some girls are notorious! well, my frenz list are also mostly guys so i can't say anything abt that. anw, he's not the kinda guy to flirt. so yeah....

let's divert!
I HAD FUN!
let's see...where shud i start...hmm...

30 JAN 09
my 12 to 3 lesson was cancelled i've never attended MIEC lecture from 9 to 11.
so i didnt really have school that day.
however, i still went over to meet huishan to complete our ITB project as it's dued on sun. well...after that, i was supposed to work.
but lovely Fit texted me askin if she cld replace me. she was bored. haha!
of course i welcomed her idea..lol..

then went out wif hamid peah ash..woohoo!
went to eat at Tong Seng then pooled at Lucky Plaza.
it was a fun Fun FUn FUN nite..i think we all agree to this, hands down. =)

on the way to lucky plaza..terlajak! haha..

look at honey eating all the cili padi..sheesh..i'd juz die.

our irresistable ones. lol.

the cheeky bfs. a moment of intimacy. bluek!

my lovely LOVELY bestie.

31 JAN 09
yesterday was a BLAST!
initial plan: teach my cuzin, meet peah n accompany her to JP, work.

in the end, we went to far east after JP...to look at the dress that she wanted as well as to satiate my craving for double choc chip subway cookies..lol!
then, somehow my plans for work were substituted with another. haha..
so we met azie, helmi and hafiz at mcCafe. it was a totally camwhore affair.
i had FUN!

the mat n minah rep. wahahaahaa!

hafiz the sport. btw, we both use Colgate. =)

helmi saini. azie moch siddi. peah. jenab. hehe..

KSS sec 1C and 2C. mish u gals loadz!

lovelies.

2009-01-30T23:58:00.002+08:00

it was hard RAWKIN tym wif peah, ash and hamid just now.
juz what i need. HAPPY PILLS!!! =)
ate at bugis and poooooooled at Lucky plaza.
haha..the guys were their usual playful selves..LOL!
especially when we were poooooling..
different orientations were tried. hamid even got a good stretching with his legs up on the pool table..
wahahahaha!

anw, bestie!
i've missed u.
n i agree we've lotsa plans but we gotta take some time to make everything work out..
haha..we shall arrange for time n money yeah! =)
all in good time honey..

2009-01-30T03:03:00.002+08:00

every inch of my body is aching and sore..urgh..
it's so difficult to just lift up my arm..sheesh..
last nite was unforgettable honey. i really mean it.
ILY.

was in the bus just noow on the way to work.
there was this HCIS boy standing beside me. (i was sitting down at the edge seat.)
he was chattering with his friends happily, not realising that his bag has the potential of smacking me in the face. in my heart, i was thinkin that i'd juz push him if his bag even skims my skin. what the heck..there were numerous close calls.
doesnt he realise how close he was to the point of embarrassment? sheesh..
lucky for him, his bag didnt touch me at all. else, he'd have gotten his reward.

moral of the story: pls pay attention to ur belongings when u're in a packed bus. cos if ur belonging is hazardous to others, u might be the one having to suffer embarrassing consequences.

another thing, i find it utmost irritating when the bus is still moving yet people just can't wait to get out of the bus. they act as if the bus is already leavin the stop. sheesh..think of others n not urself. when u're pushing, do u even think for the poor person u pushed? get THIS. the bus is not even at the stop yet. y can't ppl wait for the bus to halt before they start their routine? wldnt it be safer for everyone?
like PCK always says...USE YOUR BLAIN AR!....

2009-01-28T18:46:00.002+08:00

it was kickboxin today!
sheesh!...fun but i knew i looked HORRIBLE!
haha..
all the flailing legs and arms were all over the place.
well, the instructor looked super cool amidst us clowns..LOL!
but hey, at least i've some defence moves to use against those bitches. nyaha! prasan jer jannah.

and...i finally patched up wif hamid. gawd...
it has been a roller coaster..
patching n fighting and patching and fighting again after 2 hrs or less..
sheesh..
maybe our stars are juz crossed at the moment. AT EACH OTHER. hah!
haiz..
finally my projects are waning in number. one by one are being settled for. n soon exams!!! urgh!..
revision is like oh so necessary rite now.. n i'm like oh so bz..
shyte.

random thought: is popularity a good thing? hmmz...

2009-01-28T02:36:00.003+08:00

again, we hurdled over another obstacle.
sheesh..
i should watch my words the next time.
like bana said...think twice.

ANW,
had a karaoke session at nab's palce n it was KICKIN and ROCKIN!...
hehe..really REALLY destressed me..
n we baked a choc cake tadi! kewl or what?..haha!
it was kinda private affair wif me, ina, bana, silah and the host nabila.
it was fun. BUT funNER if the rest were there too..
oh well, there's always another day..=)
pics comin up soon...
lurve ya gals!

2009-01-27T03:56:00.003+08:00

"handy hafiz"..haha..

nice stretch hafiz! woo hoo!

my girls. love em!

bestie of all besties.

askin for a smack in da face. haha!

had a wonderful WONDERFUL time chilling at vivo with them on 25th jan 09. haiz. took me away from my probs for a while..love u guys.=)

ouh..n i so called "kissed and made up wif lina" (as aizat called it) on msn juz now.
weird huh? well, she seem harmless enuf. no longer the venomous bitch that i used to noe. so ya..everything's well. except....

2009-01-25T12:55:00.002+08:00

haiz..another ex..announcing her (in)existence.
asking me to kirim salam to andi and tellin me to think nothing of it.
possible? i guess so.
but i juz dun get it y must they make themselve known to the gerlfren?
i've enuf of it from last yr..i try hard not to think abt it. but somehow, it does bother me. A LOT.

i dun think i'm possessive tho. maybe i'm feelin this way cos i've never went up to an ex's current gerlfren to tell her,
"hey,ur bf's my ex. krm slm kt die uh. kalau die igt."
WTH???

haiz..suke ati kau la uh..
aku da malas..
aku tk tau ape maksod korg uh..
aku tade niat nk kutok atau nk maki korg..
tapi aku rase mataer mane yg tk pk laen...
laen kali biar gune otak ar..think for other ppl n not juz urself.

2009-01-25T10:11:00.010+08:00

went out wif peah, huda AND.......Hafiz on friday..lol!
unexpected huh?
him being an old flame n all..
oh yeah..did i mention he was my best friend's ex?
how cool is that? haha..we took a few crazy pics but it's all wif our dearest huda..
will update once the pictures are released ya..
anw, we had a great time just chilling and talking at vivo..tho there wasn't much scenery wif just bright lights and machines across the sea, it was a time well spent with them..n definitely a stress reliefer...lol!

here are some pics in skewl..

AND! not forgetting to say...i love u mr hamid.
u're my dolah big foot who always noe how to make me smile and laugh.
thanks for the memorable time on our 2nd anni. it may not be grand, but it definitely meant something. *hugs*

2009-01-20T12:21:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 2 YEARS TO US HONEY! =)
I LOVE U.
muah!

2009-01-19T01:29:00.003+08:00

my wonderful people of itb. =)

went out with afiq, aziz khan, man and kak zu on saturday. it was seriously all about fun and incessant laughter. with their antiques, one can never have enough time to breath. i am super glad that afiq had suggested the outing and i am grateful there weren't any UNWANTED people invited. i noe i sound mean but hey, nothing happens without a reason rite?

went bowling at marina square and had a roaring time laughing AT each other. man was the best player i must say. his style is curl ball. however he did it, i have no idea. sheesh..the man played like a pro. (well, maybe he is one after all.)

after bowling, we headed out when aziz suddenly asked if we wanted to "baduk" at Pizza Hut. HIS TREAT. haha! that was the most important part. n so we had some prosperity meal or something and the guys made jokes and all of us took a while to finish eating as we were laughing more than eating itself. somehow, we had transformed the place to a coffee shop instead. HAHA!

but we were all happy. so it's all good. =)

at work today, i had some kind of a debate with derek, kak zana and eugene regarding the turmoil in palestin. whilst debating and stating my clear facts to derek, it made me realise one thing. our lives have been blurred by propaganda. we may noe certain things but we might not be certain about it. derek was stating that it was not in good conscience that we have this hatred towards the Jews. my rebuttal was that our grimace is not because of hatred. it sourced from humanity itself. looking at the pictures forwarded through emails on what the Israel army had been doing, u can't juz stare blankly and feel nothing about it. of course your own knowledge will affect ur viewpoint. however, no knowledge or no rebuttal will be able to hide the Israel army's atrocious and barbarious nature. it's not even the opponents army that they're harming. they're harming fucking CIVILIANS! numerous unarmed and harmless women and babies were victimized without any glint of mercy. would u be insensitive enough to just put it aside without thinking of how these civilians survive? would u be able to sleep comfortably at nite to noe that at the other end of the world, children are mourning and crying after blasts and gunshots?

it's an evil world. and it is dying soon. we're all juz too immersed in our routines to really put our mind to it. it really is time to repent.

2009-01-17T02:40:00.002+08:00

had a really "in-too-deep" conversation with him just now before heading to work. i regurgitated everything that was kept in solace all this while. and he took in every single word. CALMLY.
however, i am very grateful that it all turned out well. we were able to laugh n joke about certain things though we were discussing solemn matters.

i juz dont understand why we had been squabbling a lot this past few weeks. things even looked shady and gloomy. i was actually preparing myself for the worst, if it was ever to come. looks like i really had been thinking wrong. maybe it was my hormones acting up, and letting loose all of my emotions in the wrong ways.

anyway, maybe i shall take whatever happened as a stepping stone to forging a stronger tie between us.

by the way, i can't believe i am getting debarred for BCOMM. sheesh..
got a meeting with the academic manager, my tutor and my mom on mon.
looks like monday won't be a good day for me.
but i'm juz going to take it in my stride.
OUH! n not forgetting, i have a BCOMM presentation to do on monday as well. some oral presentation thingy. and i am the FIRST to go. heck! i think the tutor's afraid that i'd just disappear from class and avoid presentation if i were put to present later. come on..where can i go sia?..haha.

simple thought of the day:

SHORT SKIRTS OR SEE-THROUGH BLOUSES? which is a definite turn-on?

2009-01-16T01:47:00.002+08:00

today was an eventful day.
a lot of laughter and stress too.
haiz..freakin itb.
now doin database.

anw, i LOVE the new look given to my blog.
THANKS NADIRA ABD RAHMAN!!! =)

*AND THAT'S A PRIVILEGE..*
NYAHAHAHAHA!

2009-01-15T02:33:00.001+08:00

maceh nad! =)
sbb editkn my blog..
u're a prodigy!
peace!

2009-01-14T01:03:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY WEI JIE!
HOPE U HAVE FUN BUYING ALL UR CIGARETTES WITHOUT THE TROUBLE OF HAVIN TO ASK ME. =)
LOL!

2009-01-13T21:05:00.001+08:00

listened to a song titled "FALL" by ina.
nice. =)
i loike!

2009-01-12T13:24:00.002+08:00

yay! i'm not workin this weekend! =)
saturday will be an outing wif afiq..GAWD i miss him!
kak zu will be there too..tot of askin peah along..hmmzzz..

i havent had any plans for sunday yet.
most probably i'll just tutor fadhil then head home for revision or sth.
i missed out a lot lately.
or maybe, revision cn be done earlier so i cn go out wif my babes!
sheesh...money is always on the roll..haha!

well, i'm anticipating tuesday which is the 20th of jan 2009.
that'll mark 2 years for us. i've never been in a serious relationship this long before.
n to be frank, i used to get attracted other guys so easily. but this time round, i think my mind's simply made up. there's no other person (other than peah..haha!) who cn make me feel how i feel for him. however, i duno how it's like on his side.

i'm still not satisfied with the makan place issue. background check: makan place is a new "canteen" in NP. it is huge, air-conditioned and has a lot of stalls. n there's subway too! =)
however, there is only 1 muslim stall there and the food that they serve looks so pathetic. it's not even close to appetizing. n the rest of the numerous stalls are either chinese OR pork-infested. sheesh..

we muslims dun even have a choice there. there's claypot and mini wok and nasi lemak and stuff like that but ALL of it can't be consumed by us. weird huh? all we cn get is from this muslim food stall with minimal dishes displayed in its shelves and that's it. pathetic huh?

now they're trying to make improvements by adding 2 more halal stalls. frrreeeaaakinn 2!?
what the heck? we are SO SPOILT for choice. sheesh.
might as well they juz make that canteen a non-halal one and open a smaller halal canteen if they worry that there won't be enough patronage.

haiz..is there really no justice in the world?

2009-01-12T01:24:00.002+08:00

thursday
bumped into peah n ash in 190 on the way home from work.
best part, it was coincidental that both of us didnt wana take the bus before the one that we boarded.
what a shock when i saw her walkin in to the back of the bus where i was seatin at.
i actually didnt c her tho. haha! those who noe my history noe too well why. =p
i recognised her dress instead. haha!
anw, had a blow of a time wif them even tho it was jus for less than an hour.
AND, she had a LOT of roses! haha..
that's so sweet of ash. n i cn tell that bestie was pleased.
she was beaming radiantly when i met her..haha! no kiddin..u juz cn tell how she feels by lookin at her face..

dearest bestie...
u were skinny before. n now u've gained weight.
but u're NOT fat. dun listen to those mediocres who're juz jealous of ur vivacious figure..=)
u're always gorgeous in my eyes honey munchkin.
an outstanding woman with pride and strong character.
LOVE YOU.

friday
tot of goin for miec lecture today. made a deal wif jo abt it.
ended up wakin up late again and skippin the lecture. AGAIN.
haha..this sem, i've not attended even one lect for miec.
call me complacent, but i can't help it.
so, i juz went to skewl for 3 hours of itb. (zzzz...)

then i got to noe my results for miec common test from kai ling. haha!
must be miracle.
AND, itb results were also released on the same day. and i passed!
haha..another miracle cos i expected to fail that paper. i totally screwed it up by paying too much attention to that NURUL bitch. HAHA! in ur face bitch.

after skewl, met jo for a drink then went to westmall to meet nad. she went to thread her brows.
she's a hot stuf u noe. gotta q up the long line if u wana get to her. ahah!
after that, we went to BPP and slacked there. talked and talked and talked till the sun went down. then, got a call from Jo TONG. haha! and we accompanied him for a while before heading our separate ways home.

saturday
it was juz plain "tuition and work" day.
work was ok. had been workin a lot wif syakil lately.
got quite close to him.
a very nice guy. and i LOVE to tease him a lot.
he'll squirm and deny and then look so cute when talkin and explaining.
HAHA!

at the end of our shift while in the office at ard 3 in the wee morning, din had to start this topic abt ghosts. haha! cari nahas ajer...but some of the stories he told were belly-shakin. haha! especially abt that fierce-lookin tattooed guy who freaked out so much when he heard the hand-dryer's mini tv. sheesh!..

today
went home wif hamid today. (YAY!)
haha..seems like i havent met him for some time now.
what wif our issues and all. (But i still love u.)
n now, i'm freakin sleepy after crackin my brains for the whole of this post.
gotta hit MY sack! =)

2009-01-10T00:51:00.003+08:00

the makan place was a total disappointment for muslims.
i've no idea what the decision-makers had in mind but definitely we weren't in it.
how can they possibly think of opening a new canteen that is so huge wif lotsa stalls n there's only 1 pathetic muslim food stall?!!
this is a definite outrage!
there's even a nasi lemak n a panggang&penyet stall. but both selling pork!?
what the heck?
what are they tryin to say?
us muslims are unimportant?
are non-muslims the only existent beings in the skewl?
there's even subway in the canteen. n subway's not even HALAL!
oh come on!
why'd u guys even bother to teach us on rational decision-making? or even talk about equal treatment to all? or sensitivity to minorities?
singapore's a total freak show.
nuff said.

2009-01-07T23:14:00.002+08:00

i really do miss him.

i miss us. and how we used to be.

2009-01-06T21:00:00.001+08:00

i finished the book! =)
it makes me think that hamid is cheating on me..haiz..
sheesh..when i NOE he's not.

2009-01-06T12:01:00.002+08:00

rocky as hell.

nuff said. nothing's been done. yet.

i'll juz wait n c. n wait some more.

i wana embrace u in this moment of pain.
but u hold me so far away, like a stranger.

i cn wait. but i'm really tested to my limits.

2009-01-06T01:27:00.002+08:00

FINALLY i get to c this woman named NADIRA.
haha! freak...it had been a hell of a time since i last saw or heard her.
geez...

well dear, i must say that today was like counselling for both of us.
no wait, maybe it was soul therapy. haha!
but it was no kidding vivacious spendin some worthwhile time wif u at JP.
even tho we were getting stares for sitting on the floor like banglas right opposite this shop named "ta zhiang". or sth like it. hehe..

n yeah..juz so u noe, ur suggestion of the choc waffles was a great idea..tho i cldnt make up my mind as to whether i wanted peanut butter or choc..haha!

dear nad,
stay on strong like u always do.
some people are juz not meant to share ur life.
these people are those sad F***s who can't appreciate what they've got n come up wif some ridiculously lame stories and deceptive lies to keep u astray from their actual intentions.
u still have everyone else who are definitely sincere in the relationship they've forged wif u to turn to.
love u ayte..

dear hamid,
i can't believe my eyes when i read ur msg.
how cn u not wana share ur sorrows wif me?
how many times have we had this convo juz to have u adamant wif ur stand?
i noe u love me n u noe i do love u too.
that's mutual n downright basic.
then, y this segregation?
in this manner, i fell like i'm only ur fair-weather fren whom u only want around during ur gd times.
u're not a hero.
u r independent, yes i noe.
but everyone needs someone to turn to.
so please, dun push me away in times of ur sorrow.
tho i noe i wont be much of a help at times, at least dun kp me in the dark and pretend everything's ok.
pretense is juz as good as lying. that means u're being dishonest wif me.
how cn i trust u when u're dishonest?
then, how cn a relationship move strong when the trust that's left is waning even further?
i have my own ego, no doubt. but everyone has it. u cant deny that.
so stop ur pretenses cos i c rite thru u.
udstd this pls.

2009-01-05T01:49:00.002+08:00

i really hate it when i'm not able to meet my frenz cos i had to work..
well...public holidays are supposed to be enjoyed wif frenz n family.
but for me, public holidays juz equal to income. wouldnt miss out that opportunity.
well, i've no choice u c..whenever it's the beginning of the year, finance is really bad as there'll be lotsa outflow than inflow. what wif siblings' skewl n bills.
haiz..it all doesnt seem to end.
well, to think abt it. it NEVER ends.
no use complaining.

i miss u guys babes!
wana go out but kinda caught up currently wif work, n soon, skewl.
haiz...opportunity will definitely present itself one day. i noe dat.
hope that this new year will be a year of change for me.

btw, 20th jan is an important date.
it'll mark 2 years for the life that i've shared wif hamid.
yet, it seems that as it draws nearer feuds are inevitable. even petty lil things cn create an uproar (on my side that is). he is always so calm in handling the situations to the point that i think he doesnt bother. haiz...i always hate it when it comes to this.

*currently reading: private dancer. courtesy of peah* =)

i'm glad that peah had a gd new year celebration wif her boyfie (my boyfie's other half), ASH.
way to go gerl! haha...finally u've experienced it! haha! shud do it together one day ayte..but must think up an excuse 1st..haha! kentalz ehk? pity me, i noe.

n i think nad's gg thru a hard time at this moment. i wasnt there for her when she needed me. will look for her later on once skewl ends tmr. goawd i miss her! in fact i miss every single one of my gerls!

well, looks like i've been blabbering all the way. n tmr skewl reopens.(BOO!)
gotta get some slp else i'll b sleepin ugly in class.

toodles!~

2009-01-01T03:17:00.002+08:00

first things first...
HAPPY NEW YEAR TO EVERYONE! =)

spent the eve workin wif incessant crowds as the nite gets darker.
gosh...
at first, we were all so happy that finally there's some action after measly crowds in the early evening.
syazwan was like sayin "happy new year" every chance he gets to customers.
but after a while, the crowd don't seem to wane that we felt a bit agitated. (or was it just me?)
but well, all's well ends well. quite a start for 2009 huh?

AND i received an sms from dearest boyfren.
and my legs were weakened from it.
hapie new year to u my love.sounds mushy.
bt, u're the onli one gettin tis softer part of me.
hehe. dol. love ya.

I LOVE U TOO!

in retrospect, i think that 2008 was a positive turn in my life coz i started school in pursue of my actual interest. and there were numerous obstacles in my academic life as well as my relationships.
not forgettin the 3 bitches who made special appearances wif their scorn.
haiz..
as hamid always says...no regrets for whatever that's done.
i guess he's rite. no point regrettin cos nothing cn be turned.

anw,
WELCOME 2009!

2008-12-28T03:10:00.002+08:00

woke up super late today.
went to teach at blk 25 then met peah bestie at her hse.
woohoo! it's been so long!

then went to gombak to pak ngah's house for a bbq feast.
SUMPTUOUS sia!
i had rice wif mutton curry n egg and fishcake sambal.
plus chicken wings.
plus hotdogs.
plus grilled beef.
plus chicken and beef patties.
plus a xmas log cake.
plus prawn.
and MORE chix wings..haha..
n i am super bloated!
gota fast the calories away tmr..i mean later..

talkin bout later, i'll be workin from 9am to 3am.
hmmz..duno if i'll last.
but i'm damn sure i'll be almost lifeless..

anw, have been webcam-ing wif hamid since ard 1..haha..that's a record..
got a no. of peektures captured.
wif botak by his side.
and my cuzzins hoggin the cam leavin me behind. haha!
shall post it soon..hehe..

2008-12-23T23:05:00.002+08:00

it was my first time attending staff meeting today.
hahakz! it was together with the staff xmas gift xchange.
guess what? i got a jigsaw puzzle..haha!
ok lar..it's the thought that counts.

today was smokin hot wif hamid..sheesh..=)
thanks for showin me some gd time honey..
really needed it.
it has been a while.

the other day i went to afi's place to celebrate ibu's bday.
after which i went to meet peah at her hse..
and guess what?
i met mr nottingham there! haha..
gopal(as his london mates call him) came back from london for vacation.
had a roaring time wif him, sevan and peah that nite.
gosh..thanks for takin me as outstanding mr mediocre nottingham..haha!
it was nice talkin to u. BOTH of u. =)

anw, still havent blogged abt the outing wif kasthuri on 19th dec.
there're pics but gotta upload them.
gona do it when i have the time to.
i'm so gona blog abt it..
haha..i enjoyed myself that nite..
love em double dates! hehe..=)

2008-12-16T19:29:00.002+08:00

one full day at home.
bored to death.
rotted away.
so many things to do.
with not a single desire to complete anything.
was being a total couch potato today.
finally got down to watchin those dvds that were in my KIV list.

can't say i'm down under the weather.
but i'm not ok either.
i duno y.
maybe it's juz the hormones.
yeah....

2008-12-16T00:11:00.002+08:00

NADIRA
yay!
nad's back from KL!..
miss her soooooooooo much!
y shudnt i? she's my wacky soulmate who shouted bye to herself..haha!
hope ur trip had been a GREAT one darling!
ouh! update ur blog PLS! wana c the pics. ALL of it! haha..
we'll definitely go out nxt wk k..=)

MARFU'AH NUR
peah juz left for phuket today.
her flight was at 6pm. i couldnt see her off to Changi airport cos i was scheduled to work at 2pm.
n so, i went reported to work at 3 instead of 2. haha!
cos i wanted to meet her before her departure. i miss her lots!
we've been trying to meet up a lot of times during last wk n the wk before but things juz keep cropping up. so i decided to put aside everything else for a moment juz to meet her.
gawd....
hope u'll have a gd time there honey munchkins!
come back wif stories n photos yar! =)

juz msn-ed wif a guy named aizat.
i've no idea who he is.
he added me on frenster abt a yr ago..
n i still duno who he is.
anw, he juz related his relationship problem to me.
i was quite taken aback.
but well, i juz listened and gave my views anw. haha!
selamber jer aku nie..

work was frantic today..
didnt even get to eat..
crazy crowds. they've no sense of timing at all..
haha! (y am i blaming the crowd?)
anw, there was this chinese auntie.
she's a regular and us Cathay-ans all noe her.
she's a peculiar person. only Cathay-ans noe y.
HAHA! kekek sak!..
u shud've seen her dancing (line-dance steps) to the music on the video wall.
hehe..n she was so happy! haha..
suroh die alek tk nk alek..sheesh..
suke ati kau lar auntie. asal kau bahagia.

tmr gg jb. zzzzzzzzzzzzzz...
i feel so lazy...
but gotta accompany the first lady of the hse there..urgh!
i hope we wont be long there..

n my back ache's gettin worst. i've no idea what to do abt it..
hmmz...maybe a gd massage would help. especially the ones offered at resort spas...aaah!
anyone willing to do a gd deed to a person in need? hehe..

2008-12-15T02:55:00.003+08:00

when our hair was blacker and longer. haha!

peah's flyin to phuket tmr..n i havent met her at all!

it's like we've been tryin to meet up but htings juz cropped out of nowhere and the meeting always get cancelled. n now she's LEAVIN!

ok lar..she'll only be gone for ard a wk..
BUT STILL...she wont be ard..=(

us humans always take things for granted.
i didnt noe that i'd miss u this much.
love u lots bestie.
u've been wif me through thick and thin.
even more than my boyfriend had.
i thank god for blessing my life wif such a wonderful angel.
i'm sorry for all those times that i cldnt be there for u.
i miss u.

btw, work was crazy juz now. n i was freakin tired!
had no idea y...haiz..
maybe my mind's recuperating from the bitch attack. n the lethargy has been passed to my body.

gawd...i'm still not over her. YET.

2008-12-14T02:10:00.003+08:00

yes. i was thru a rough patch.

yes. i was broken.

AND yes. it's over.

alhamdulillah.

hamid explained everything.

i believe him.

the bitch's a liar.

a big one.

literally too. haha!

i hate her for what she did.

as well as what she was tryin to do.

what's her motive?

no idea. sheesh...

stooped so low.

haiz..

put me through so much. juz to noe that it's all hoaxed.

well, at least things are back to normal wif me n hamid.

or even, better than before.

maybe Allah had brought this gerl to shaken the trust that we hold so dear in our relationship to strengthen it.

thanks to all who had been there for me.

especially Jo who spent the whole day wif me juz to hear my incessant bawling.

oh gawd! thank u so much!

last but not least, a note to dear boyfriend.

u shud have tried to explain from the very start.

but then again, it was a very bad timing for u.

i'm so sorry.

i didnt noe u had prior problems to this.

i love u.

2008-12-12T14:53:00.003+08:00

last paper n i screwed it up. couldnt even study for it the whole nite even tho i was awake and staring at the tons of paper in front of me.

last nite was a disaster.
dun wana talk abt it.
dun wana bawl it out.
but i juz cant help myself.
i duno what to believe or who to believe.
nobody's makin any sense.
i'm gg crazy.
should shift to hougang real soon.
both besties are leavin for vacation.
peah gg phuket. nad gg KL.
can't relate to them. not YET maybe.
dun wana spoil their vacations.

i'm totally in the mood for angst n jiwang.
i wana smoke.
i wana drink.
i wana dance.
i wana flirt.
i wana live my life.

to a certain someone.
i will not say anything abt it.
be it true or not.
i'm juz gona shut myself up n be like this till i am OK.
i noe u wont xplain.
cos u're not in the wrong.
then i also wont budge.
cos i duno anything anymore.
mistakes are inevitable, i noe.
but u juz shattered every part of me. not a single piece was spared.
my body trembles every time i think of last nite.
the tears will juz flow without me realizing.
i wana b strong but i'm juz weak.
i trusted u. i always have. even on this one.
but last nite was ur downfall.

i hate this part. i truly do.

2008-12-11T20:42:00.003+08:00

SHE SAID THAT SHE'S BEEN CONTACTIN ANDI FOR ALMOST A YR NOW!
FUCK!

N THAT HE SOUNDED HER BEFORE. N THAT ANDI SAID I'M NOT HIS GF.
I'VE NO IDEA WHAT THE HELL IS GOING ON HERE.
BUT HAMID IS REALLY NOT COOPERATING.
HE DOESNT WANA DEFEND HIMSELF BUT INSISTS THAT IT'S NOT TRUE.
HE JUZ WANTS ME TO OPEN UP MY MIND N THINK.

don wanna be harsh to u. but if tis kinda thing, others wish to topple our relationship, need u to open up ur mind. don juz follow ur heart when ur mind's not in the rite place.

BUT HOW CN I THINK WHEN HE'S NOT COOPERATING!?

WELL, AT LEAST I HAVE THE GERL'S NUMBER NOW. MORE CONVENIENT COMMUNICATION.
JUZ MSGED HER ABT AN HOUR AGO.
BEST PART...NO RPLY!
FUCK HER!
I'LL JUZ WAIT N SEE WHAT HAPPENS NEXT.

2008-12-07T04:04:00.002+08:00

haiz...sleepy but can't sleep!!!
mom's bz cleaning up the hse n i'm in front of the lappy, reeking of popcorn.
sianz...

gona have to bake suji once i'm done blogging.

before i forget, let's juz make a public announcement:

to all of my frens and family...
SELAMAT MENYAMBUT AIDILADHA! =)

2008-12-06T17:36:00.002+08:00

some weird girl juz begged me to add her on frenster.
hmmz..i'm afraid of what's to come.
she said that she had sth important to tell me AND i shudnt let hamid noe.
funny thing, she addressed hamid by his nick, so she must've known him from his yesteryears.
i wonder what is it that she wants to tell me that sounded so urgent.
haiz...i cn only hope for the worst now...

2008-12-03T22:51:00.003+08:00

today i forgot that there was CATS lesson.
but i attended S&W though..n today's lesson we learnt some new steps to a jazzy fast number called drink drank drunk. even the steps make me act like a drunkard. haha!

after skewl, met hamid at amk to head home together. as usual, we created a ruckus in the human-packed train. i always feel comfortable around him. i can juz be myself without worrying as to what he'll think of me. i guess that's mutual cos he's always so natural in his ways. i cn feel the sincerity with not a single touch of pretense.

when i reached home, he was online..haha! it's my 1st encounter msn-ing with him.

although he doesnt know of my blog yet and probably never will have a look at it, this spontaneous pantun is for u dear:

walaupun panjang musim kemarau
merpati sejoli tetap berdua
biarpun onak duri di ranjau
kasihku tetap untukmu jua

wokeyz..that's my jiwangz sentiments taking its toll. haha!
saaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaayang u!

2008-12-03T01:32:00.002+08:00

botak: i'm gona slice u up!!
jannah: oh dear! what am i to do??!
hamid: dun worry my lady! i'm here to save u!
(if only that was what actually happened..haha!)

went to afi's place today to get my lappy back from hamid.
in the end, it became a photography session with his collection of swords.
i was amazed at the amunt 1 costs..can even fetch up to a thousand and more!
but i muz really applaud afi for doin a gd job at keeping them nice.

brought hani along with me..the boys were treating her nicely. hani was fond of cats, so she had a wonderful time playin wif lovable teddy..n she said something about hamid which made me laugh.
HANI: depan mak, abang hamid bisu. nari banyak berbual pulak. cakap hani gemuk lagi.
hahakz! kids really do say the darndest things!

let's usher in the new year with LOVE! =)

2008-12-02T01:03:00.001+08:00

that's my younger sis..love her to the core man!

probably my bro was feeling gayish, so he snugged up to my boyfren.

1 dec 2008

it was a memorable day for me as hamid actually came over to my house to meet my mom. for the FIRST time! haha..it was a classic moment as i rarely get to c him so quiet. i was relieved that mom actually likes him. all of my siblings were home too as they are currently having their holidays. so basically, we brought the house down with tons of laughter. my sis bastard sia...
he was wearing the brown cap as u cn see from the above pic. she made a remark as to y he was wearing a cap..haha! we all noe y. includin my mom. he's actually coverin his blonde hair. haha...must create impression mah...HAHAKZ!
*kene spot jugak...gd job iqah! =)*

after the meet-the-family-without-the-dad session, went to beauty world at bt timah to play pool. gawd, me n my sis totally sucked at it. the two guys saved our grace. n iqah was super loud! i think the group of chinese guys beside us were quite irritated with her. haha! heck! that's her usual self. juz can't be bothered bout others. but the rest of us were worried and at the same time kinda irritated too..
*mane tak..memekak giler!..no offense iqah..haha..*

hamid was super fussy bout his hair.

can u see the "hantaran" i was holding on to?

30 nov 2008

hamid's cuz got married. this time round, it's his dad's side of the family.

we had to be at the groom's house at 11 in the morning. i didnt sleep the nite before as i was "busy" playing a game on faris' PSP. haha! n hamid didnt sleep too..cos he was also "busy" DOTA-ing at afi's place.

so basically, we were both sleepyheads on his cuz's big day.

lucky there was the chartered bus service. throughout the bus rides, we were "busy" resting our eyes...=)

from the groom's house at bt panjang, we went to the bride's at yishun for the akad nikah ceremony. from there we proceeded to hajah maimunah at geylang for the FOOD! haha...mind you...there's ikan pari bakar! wif sambal some more!..

wah! worth sacrificing my sleep sia!..hehe..

2008-11-29T02:17:00.002+08:00

it's adrian's last day at work today...=(
very2 sad...he's such a wonderful colleague..
it's a sad thing that his attachment period had come to an end and he has to fly back to Philippines...

here's a note to u:
i find u cute and adorable. n a very efficient and work-smart colleague.
ketawe2! all the time ok?
haha...gona miss u loads..
take care..

bestie dropped by my workplace today. i coulldnt help but to lighten up when she's ard..before she arrived, i was super down and freakin shagged. haiz...think something's loose somewhere..haha!
thanks bestie..u never fail to make me smile regardless the situation. i love u lots.

2008-11-28T00:51:00.003+08:00

i duno y...
i always dun like it when hamid's hangin out wif effa.
tho i noe they've been frenz for long. effa's hamid's fren's gf btw.
i'm not doubting him or anything like that but i'm always annoyed when i hear her voice in the background. i'll try to keep it inside me for as long as i can..haiz..

ANW, today i tot i was workin till 1. but actually, i was scheduled only till 10. haha! damn grateful when i saw the schedule juz now..i'd even have kissed that A3 paper..haha!

after work, met up with Jo at bangkit. went to get a bueno (yummy!) and a drink at 711 as he got his sticks. he said that his heart/lungs were in pain but he still continued to have a stick while waiting for my bus to arrive. cari penyakit btol la budak nie...haiyo..

next wk's e-learning wk! n hamid's off falls on mon n tue nxt wk...woohoo!
think i shud be able to spend more time wif him. kinda miss him nowadays. cos we're both bz wif our own lives. where shud we head to eh?...hmmz..
nvm, nxt wk cn think..or even better still, ask him to surprise me. hehe. sad rite? have to ASK for a surprise. haha!

but common test is juz the wk after...gosh....
i'm torn! it's either i study or spend time wif him.
study=abandonment of hamid.
meet him=risking my competency.

i think my choice shud be quite clear..of course i'd still meet him. BUT, he'll be enjoying the company of my lappy while i study wif books and notes n tons of paper. quite sound rite? =)

2008-11-27T01:17:00.003+08:00

had a WONDERFUL time today!
haha.

wednesdays are my happy days cos there's s&w. i always enjoy myself for s&w lessons..
it was a sad thing tho that my partner Juliana was sick. =(
nonetheless, i still enjoyed the lesson wof siti n her partner. u guys rawk my socks! haha!

it was a sweat off lesson for s&w. supposed to help shed some weight.
BUT....

bestie came over my skewl all the way from NYP to meet and accompany me to NUS. so we went to NUS together to meet my fren n pass her order to her. haha! kecoh!
after that, we went to 26 to eat. i was FAMISHED cos i haven't had a bite the whole of today. =(
me wifout food is like a dying flower. haha!

well, a lot of things happened along our journey. gawd! can't believe how much laughter we had...haha!
firstly, we took 151 wifout noein where to alight. LUCKILY the central library sign was super prominent. then, we planned to take 963 from NUH to go to CWP. HOWEVER, we missed the stop due to "slow traffic"...kn bestie? haha...kekek sey..

in the end we took the train. haha! problem solved! =)

OUH...n i stuffed myself wif food today..both at the coffee shop as well as at bestie's house. i always feel welcomed at bestie's house. it's like i'm part of the family. i love them. n i love u most my dear bestie..=)
jgn kembang k...haha..

can't wait for saturday! =)
2 more days! woohoo!

2008-11-26T01:48:00.002+08:00

was super shagged at skewl today...duno what i did last nite that caused me to be so freakin tired. slept thru the whole itb lect.. gosh..

i friggin miss nad..where the heck are u?!
i dun even get to c u in skewl...

boyfie kena fine again. for litterin his cig butt. duno how many times alrdy sia...he just doesnt learn his lesson. sheesh!...
ended up squabbling wif him. haiz...
let him lead his life n i'll lead mine. for now, we're juz 2 separate entities. no point in talkin.

anw, work was great juz now. kamilliya is all over iqbal n u shud juz c her xpression. haha! kecoh!
n today i was being nice to bitch. haha! actually talked to her. gawd! ok lar...juz a sentence tellin her where her stuf was..consider that good enuf ok. stil hate the slut tho.

n i came across lina's blog..haha! she posted our frenster msg convo on her blog! haha...told ya she can't live wifout me...=)

ntah la kn...some ppl say they dun wana ungkit...but end up they're the one bringin it all back...and then kasi alasan, "i'm being blunt. that's juz me". crap i'd say.

haiz...da minah, minah jugak...

2008-11-25T11:50:00.003+08:00

baby didnt slp the whole nite...
was up yesterday...LEPAKING wif botak n effa...gosh..
i duno how he does it..
thanks for tryina wake me up this morn but i was super tired. sorry that i didnt even realise ur massive missed calls...
haha!

n yar...called me again juz to ask me how the song bangau oh bangau goes...hahakz!
cldnt slp till he gets it...haha!
finally he knocks off at 10.39am after gettin the whole song correct...duhz~
n to think that he has to wake at 2 later for work..

BABY-> u're CRAZY!

2008-11-25T00:39:00.002+08:00

haiz...guess lina juz can't get enuf of me.
added me on msn. criticized me for being sarcastic. and ended up gettin blocked. haha.

MALAS AR NK LAYAN PERANGAI MEPEK.

let her say watever. i juz can't be bothered cos she's a mere human looking for attention.
i'm sorry gerl. not interested. i've lotsa other stuf to do n think about. i'd suggest u get a life. without me that is. is that too hurtful for u? awww....so sorry honey..but i WAS done wif u.

do not mistake my silence for fear. n do not push ur luck. i am being super nice to u. i dun think u'd get the same treatment if i wasn't me.

anyway, thanks for helpin me to coin the term plastic stalker. suits u juz fine. =)
hope u liked it.

2008-11-24T01:04:00.004+08:00

haha! bestie got caught wif the hangman gadget on my blog! haha! since 22 nov 08.

had a gd time studyin wif her on sat. dear, we shud do that more often babe. =)

n btw, thanx for the encouragement on ur blog..haha!

jgn lupe bawakkn cap utk aku k?...hehe..nk pinjam jap jer..=)

anw, hamid's cousin, easily referred to as kak nana, took her plunge into the world of marriage. (haha! i meant it in a nice way actually.)

it was all nice n smooth.

bestie was supposed to accompany me but had to go out wif her fam instead.=(

but it's alrite cos swi, shaherman n nurul are there..at least i won't feel as awkward. in addition to that i was kinda embarrassed cos i'm not part of the family at all.

had a fun time. especially when people start to sing..haha! some of his uncles were true entertainers. kesian the host, limelight kena stolen.haha!

i actually wanted to wear kurung. but hamid insisted that i wear the white kebaya that he bought for me last raya. cos he wanted to wear white too. was thinkin of wearin another color but he wasn't happy with it. i didnt want the uncles and aunties there to talk about us. but since he was persistent abt it, i might as well juz go wif his demand. haiz...

what's happening to the world man...guys are becomin more like girls. AND they say WE"RE the demanding ones..

and today, i met a lot of new ppl that i have no idea who they are. haha! i was introed and then i juz cldnt rmbr. sheesh~! hehe...my apologies...

n i LURVE lorry rides!!! =)

my fantasy came true....shucks! i LOVE YOU!

me n nurul. gorgeous juz lost weight. AGAIN.

SELAMAT PENGANTIN BARU KAK NANA! SEMOGA BERKEKALAN HINGGA KE ANAK CUCU!

2008-11-21T00:19:00.001+08:00

haiya...still at work.
cab's not here yet...jia lat sia..
can't wait for tmr..get itb presentation done over with.
then have to turn over a new leaf with the creation of the database and website. haiz..
n tmr's lecture for miec is on cost.
guess what?
i've not attended any econs lecture at all this sem..gaaah!
haha..gawd...i feel like a pig.

a very piggy pig. =(

2008-11-20T00:36:00.002+08:00

was missing boyfie so badly...
this wk he's on mornin shift. usually i get to c him mostly every day after school when he's on this shift.well, this time's so different. i haven't had the time for him at all.
it's either i'm working or stayin in school to complete projects n stuf lyk dat.
unbelievable huh? i used to always have time for him..now he's juz unsqueezeable.. =(

however, today was kind of an exception.
after s&w, sufi asked me to wait for him cos he wana go off together..as usual.
so i waited n hamid was sayin dat he finished work alrdy and asked me out.
haha! usually it's the other way round.. =)

n so...we planned to meet at JP.
sufi was so confident that we'll reach before hamid does.
n it turned out hamid had to wait for us for more than half an hour! haha!
then keep askin me if hamid's gona be angry..haha!..cute boi..

ate at banquet. went to toys r us n get in touch with our unfulfilled childhood fantasies n then went home.

n i am still smiling till now.
can't wait for next meet up! =)

*n i realised sth, i have a lot of frens ard me who care. n i love them LOTS!

2008-11-18T18:26:00.002+08:00

i think kai ling's mad at me. cos i've not been contributing to the itb project.
i noe it's my fault dear...i'm super sorry..
guess i was juz too caught up in my own world.
seriously felt like givin up skewl last wk cos i cldnt handle the stress...

WHAT IS HAPPENING TO ME??!!!

I THINK I NEED COUNSELLING. I REALLY DO.

how i wish peah was here. or nad. i feel so lonely nowadays. although boyfie had been an angel trying to keep me on track, it's juz not enuf.

where is everyone? i nd u guys...i want things to be the same as they were before..=(
*SOBS*

2008-11-18T00:53:00.002+08:00

messaged lina on frenster on monday morning at ard 2 plus...haha!
y? cos she viewed my profile. hehe...out of the blue..

then, what followed was a series of tongue games. haha! kecoh...
i guess she still thinks that i'm the lowly kind of woman who used to be crazy over her boyfren n not over it yet. DAMN WOMAN! remember ur words like i remembered mine.

well, i only replied her with humor. cos i really can't believe that she still slams me. (which she says she's not. she said that she was juz being blunt. that's her usual self. or so she says.)

n so....it carried on. but, i believe the chapter was closed long ago. i duno y she had to say whatever she had to say earlier on. get this clear: I'VE GOT DIGNITY.

boyfie's being a wonderful motivator nowadays. pushing me to my limits in terms of skewl. sometimes i juz feel like breakin down n givin up. at those times i'd wana be alone. when i get too lonely, i bother him. n then he talks to me. n i'll be very crappy n he'll still be talkin to me. like last nite. he tried to soothe me till ard 3am when he has to wake at 5.30 for work.

well dear, i noe i've said it once too many times.
but i'm still sayin it.

I LOVE YOU.

*finally had my cup of bubble tea after SO LONG!

FOR NAD: beb! i had cheese fries today! haha.....n i'm one heck of a happy woman! =)

2008-11-13T23:40:00.006+08:00

went to watch TROPIC THUNDER today. like FINALLY.

hah!...had a wonderful time. great show, great boyfie and great customer service makes it all a great experience! =)

we were sittin in the middle of 2 other couple seats. basically it was kinda multi-racial row back there. haha!

we were the malay couple in the centre. to hamid's left was a chinese couple who were cuddling before the show started and still cuddling after the show.haha! n to my right was this indian couple. the lady had a super loud laughter n found even the smallest things humorous. oh well, i dun mean to insult her. she wasn't the only loud one. everyone was basically near-hysterical with the antiques on-screen.

then when we were going home, we took the train towards marina bay to bounce back. THEN, nature had to call me just at that moment. GAWD! so he insists that i alight at city hall to release my "small water". while he waited inside the station, i paced quickly to the toilet. as i was walkin, there was this group of guys strollin near me. they were slightly in front though. then there was this guy in green who was laughing with his frenz. suddenly he turned to face me n gave me a weirdly friendly smile. haha! in the midst of bustling people. cn u imagine that? haha! n my bf wasnt there to witness it! =(

but then again, if he was there then maybe mr green shirt wldnt have dared to pull that kind of stunt. haha! that was brave of him tho. lucky for him i'm not one who bother much.

BTW, the bf wore his new shirt today with studded belt. it's totally sth new n different from what he usually dons.

i'll juz let the snapshots speak for itself.

it was supposed to be me ONLY!

at pasir ris wif kak zu on 8/11/08.

2008-11-05T21:28:00.003+08:00

MONDAY
on monday, went to amk polyclinic to get an mc as i skipped skewl again. i've no idea how many days i've skipped this sem. i juz duno y i suddenly dun have the mood to go to skewl anymore. is it cos nad's no longer in the same class? or is it just me? too shiok with life during vacation..haiz....no matter what reason i have, i must face reality that i HAVE to change my attitude else i could be dismissed.

as i was sayin, went to amk polyclinic. it was like a maze at amk town centre. i had no idea where it was! lucky me saw ASH walkin and called out to him. (ash is bestie's cute boyfie) i asked him for directions. he gave me exactly what i needed AND also told me that bestie's also at the registration area! HAHA! sweet huh!..hehe..so i hurried over and there she was! gawd i missed her...

after getting our meds n mcs, the 3 of us waited for HAMID at amk hub. ASH did not waste any time and went to get a haircut at QB house..haha! then off we went to town! =)

ate at cahaya restaurant n what a time we had there. HAMID and ASH seems to always have ideas to make us gerls laugh. haiz. how we love em rite peah? =)

well, that was monday. GREAT monday.

TUESDAY
and tuesday, i skipped skewl. AGAIN. haiz. feel like slappin myself now. got a counselling session from nad..haha! u rawk gerl..thankz..

then went off for werk. (pretending that i was from skewl, of course.)
did catering and had to serve wine.
oh well, bitch was there too! oh boy!
how i hate her!

well, it was my 1st time doing catering n clumsy's my middle name. so yaa, i broke 2 wine glasses. 1 in front of all the guests n 2nd was in the clearing area...ARGH!
haha..felt like a fool n did not wana hold any glasses anymore... n suherman had to tease me so much for it. well, thank gdness i'm the kind to get over embarrassing moments quite quickly by laughin it off...gaaaaaH!

and it wasnt a gd day for me either as i found out at werk that it was that time of the month. sheesh... cn things get any worst?
BUT....the end of the day was sweet... dearest boyfie came to fetch me n go home together...AWWW!!...haha.. he rarely does that. that's y i'm SO intrigued..haha!

TODAY
it's elearning for CATS diz wk..so didnt have to face that proboscis monkeyin class..haha! i've no idea why i called him that. met up wif my group to do the session and discuss on our assignment. then, before s&w had a pau n hot milo wif JO. haha..thanks for the milo dude. sorie u had to finish it. haha!

aerobix was kinda tough today or was it just me that have gained weight over the days..sheesh!..so freaking shagged after the session.

called boyfie again n again but he never seems to be free. haiz..give up sia...haha..

when i was waiting for the bus, saw sufi n talked to him. then, nad came over. haha! GAWD i missed her so much! accompanied her to BA office then we lepak-ed outside cheers..it's been LONG since we did that...n she was tempting me to eat! baaaasket! haha... well, it's no use..haha! cos i flexed away! haha! it was hard but i persevered aye....hehe..

*can't wait for kak shikin's chalet! woohoo!*

2008-11-03T02:09:00.002+08:00

well, another day at work. supposed to do closing with bitch today but bitch "buay"ed shift. ALHAMDULILLAH...

haha...she makes me sick.....GAAAH!

work was smooth. but basically i did most of the closing as the other 2 are newcomers. n yea...with the help of syakil n rakinah, everything went well...thanks guys.

after work, went to boyfie's place to get my beloved lappy. reached ard 2315 hrs. he insisted that i take the cab but as usual, i refused. left his place at 2350 hrs. n as we were going out of the hse, i told him about an incident at work. HUGE mistake. i shldnt have opened my mouth. he was silent for a few moments. when i asked, "NOTHING" was the repeated answer.

then, i asked for a peck on my cheek, he said "dun wan. someone carried u". wth!

then came the bus. kissed him on his cheeks and forehead. but he didnt retaliate. hugged him tite but his hands were kept to himself. i have no idea what to do to pacify him so i just carried on my journey. and it felt like 1 DARN long journey home. lucky Jo called cos he needed company.

talked to Jo n now typing on this blog.

RANDOM STRIKE

i miss peah huda ain nad! where're u guys?
i want a pair of sneakers. haha.
i want HIM. very much. rite now. love u.

2008-10-29T00:01:00.002+08:00

had this ang moh customer. male. white. n SUPER tall.

came to me n asked for popcorn. so i showed him the 2 sizes available. he kept quiet n juz looked at me. so i continued lookin at him in the eye if he wants to get drinks along with it.

suddenly he shouted at me saying he wanted "2 LARGE SALTED POPCORN!"

well, can't blame me..the screen's audio was loud n i only heard popcorn anw..

before i could say anything, he rambled on about what he wanted..so i cut him off by saying "ok sor-ry..i'll juz get em for u".

probably he's still not happy n continued his ramblings..i cldnt be bothered at 1st. then he started to say "STUPID SINGAPOREANS!"

i stopped scoopin and looked directly in his eye. told him that it's not in his right to call me stupid. then he keeps on ranting about what color is the sky n stuff like dat. i finished scooping n pushed the popcorn to him. all the other staff gathered ard me to c if i was ok.. of course i am. but i really felt like givin him a gd blow.

then, came his partner(lady). n she was CHINESE! probably they squabbled n i became his punching bag. at least he stopped labelling us singaporeans when i shot at him. F**KER! the partner didnt even dare to look at me in the eye when she ordered from me.

main point is, how dare he label singaporeans as stupid?! then y be so stupid to get a SINGAPOREAN partner? n HELLO...u wldnt have been here if u find us stupid. DUMBASS!
he shud be deported for such racist remark n never allowed a place here. can u believe it? a foreigner calling us stupid? that includes our dear president n the whole government too doesn't it?

lucky he didnt ramble on any longer. i swear i'd have started a scene in front of all the Singaporeans there..

this is what happens when consumers take advantage of their sovereignity. customers are always rite aye? is he still?

2008-10-23T20:51:00.003+08:00

today didnt start off very well. AMAZINGLY, i woke early today and got out of the house at 8 SHARP. everyone noes THAT is mission impossible for me. well, that shud be good rite? n i shud be on time if not earlier. guess what? i was freakin wrong! i reached lecture at 0930 hrs. how's that. i never take longer than 1hr to reach skewl n yet, when i wake up so early to get to skewl punctually...the FREAKIN jam had to just dampen my morning. ****!

pardon the explicit language. i'm just totally FREAKED!

after skewl i met dearest nad. i can't help but treat her like my own younger sis. we NEVER fail to have so much fun together. sad thing that we had to be separated. she had a short meeting with her DSS fasc so i waited for her at the staircase. ALONE. n BORED. so yea...miss vainpot ME just had to snap some shots. haha!

i am a narcissist n DAMN proud of it! =)

then went to CWP to collect my N81 that got sick a few days back. hamid came along with botak, afi n LAN!!!...haha...they accompanied me throughout then sent me home. well botak went off earlier as he missed his HOME TOILET. haha!! he shud be feelin better by now.

well, something happened while i was at the service center. there was a LONG q for phone collection. this chinese auntiewas no. 142. she flared at the service officer cos she had to wait for very long. she created quite a scene n we all noe how aunties' voices are usually like..haha..poor Filipino girl. keep in mind that the auntie kept her voice at a constant frequency of at least 70 decibels. (ok, maybe not THAT loud but u noe wat i mean. n damn! she was simultaneously banging the counter top.)

AUNTIE: so poor service!!!!

FILIPINO: i'm sorry u had to wait ma'am. how may i assist u? (patiently)

AUNTIE: i had to wait for hours!!! people now no 160++ already!! if i hadn't asked, u juz ignore is it?!! want me to wait until when?!!

FILIPINO: (raised her voice to meet the auntie's voice but with a patient tone) Ma'am, please lower ur voice. If u r not gona lower ur voice, i'm not gona serve u.

AUNTIE: FINE!! dun serve me!! i dun want also!! ask ur manager to call me!!!!!! (storms off)

Fuiyo!! kecoh...hahakz! i felt like laughing but thought better of it. haiz...it's NOT easy to please people...

well, customers may always be rite. but how about the officers' own rights?
well, i think that customers deserve to be treated rudely if they themselves are rude.

note to auntie: thanks for the freeshow. hah! maybe the graphics shud have been better. =P

2008-10-22T00:51:00.002+08:00

i juz realised that i didnt start proper for my blog.
guess i shud juz type out a few words about my life that people shud generally noe.
well again, maybe i shud list out 20 most important things that a JANNAH shud have.

1. FAMILY
2. love of my life = hamid
3. besties = peah, nad, huda, ain
4. WONDERful friends
5. hugs n kisses are mandatory.
6. love for chocolates and stuffed toys
7. HUGE smile
8. star "karat" attitude
9. nike water bottle from PEAH
10. adidas bag from HUDA
11. guess wallet from NADIRA
12. gold ring from HAMID
13. self esteem
14. cheerfulness
15. playfulness
16. love for laughter
17. love for FOOD
18. a pinch of bitchiness
19. love for PURPLE
20. the ever-important shades! haha.

and i just realised 1 thing. maybe it's not a list of what's important. BUT it's a list of what i think i have and appreciate. i can't care less what others think for now cos i'm too caught up with my own life. sorry. i'll think about all of u others when i grow up k?..haha. ok, i'm becoming nonsensical. gd nite.

2008-10-18T16:59:00.000+08:00

skipped school today. taught hamid's cuz then wanted to go to cwp n send my phone for servicing as well as to get some stuff from popular. well, eventually i didnt get to cwp. instead, i decided to meet peah, good thing too.

met bestie at her house. actual plan was to juz drop by n say hi n get along wif my plans. HAHA! fat chance. in the end, i stayed n talked n decided to go eat. after a few fickle moments, bestie finally made her decision after we heard a sound. HAHA! darn funny!

and so, we went to lot1, ate LJS. I fed dear bestie cos she insisted on not eating. i dun blame her for that cos she was sick. well, she still ate when fed. haha! so i concluded that she just wanted to taste my hands! haha! rite bestie? =P

anw, we had a long talk.......

soemtimes, i just wish that i had magical powers to make things better for her. i love her so much. she was always there in my times of need. and when it comes to her, i juz feel that i am inadequate. here's a lil note for u my dear bestie...

1 full year
we spent together
stuck like glue
inseparable from each other

come 08
what's mandate
school started
well, that's fate

well babe,
i may not have bombastic words
or captivating language

but all i gotta say is,
u r the treasure that was hidden in the beds of the ocean.
i am feeling ever so lucky cos i found it deep in the "Kranji" ocean. haha!

love u babe!

ENGAGEMENT??!?!?!?!?!!!???!?!?!!!!!

2008-10-03T02:13:00.000+08:00

it's only the 2nd day of raye. n i've a huge problem on hand now..i am partly happy but MOSTLY sad about it.. i bet hamid's even more stressed up than i am at this moment.
that's y he's at botak's place playing PS2.
GAWD..

reached hamid's house at ard 1.30 on the 2nd oct.
we were gonna go out to visit his dad's side of the family. so it's juz gona b me, him n his ibu.
juz like any other day at his house, things went on as usual.
then, when i was in the kitchen with his mom, she said..........

IBU: if there're no complications, i'll be going to ur house with granny, granddad n my hubby next year in february.

JANNAH: uhhhh....eh?

then, ibu walked out into her room to get ready. i was left there alone but i didnt think of anything..

THEN, when we were at the neighbour's house...

IBU: this is hamid's future fiance.

NEIGHBOUR: oh...where does she stay?

IBU: woodlands..if there're no complications next year feb will be the date.

i was super dumb founded lar...i mean, hamid didnt even discuss with me yet...
n my parents are even not aware of the plans..
AND dad is still not ready to accept hamid or let me lead my own life yet. he still wants me in the house. and the best part...I"M STILL SCHOOLING!

i dun mean to say that i'm unhappy. i AM happy. it is prolly something that i've always wanted. or rather, a surprise that i would have wanted from my beloved boyfie. BUT, given the situation about my dad, i juz dun think that things will turn out too well..
and feb's ONLY 4 months away!

and tomorrow hamid's dad is gona discuss further with the other of his family members regarding our engagement. ARGH!!!..

can someone pls help me out here!!!!!???

to hamid: i do love u. but an engagement is just too sudden. it would have been a wonderful surprise if things with my dad were better. i hope u udstand. i'd wana be with u more than anything else but i just think that the time is just not right...YET.

wait a few years more k dear..i won't run anywhere..=P

SERIOUSLY..

the pressure.

2008-09-22T02:59:00.000+08:00

ouhkay..here i am bloggin under pressure.

PEAH N NAD...

voila! here u go!
i'm not much of an IT person so u guys gotta help me out here pls....
guess that's enuf for now..
gotta head back to bed..
nitez! =)